Dec 11 etc. from inkpad app

Dec 11, 2014Whats really been frustrating me is, i feel most of th time when I'm with you, you have your guard up, like i gotta crack your shell lol. idk. but at the same time I'm probably also guarded, and I'm not even sure if I am. And I knew from th start we'd both be slow with opening up to each other, and i guess now, after a yr, i thought we'd be a little closer than i believe we are. But who knows, maybe we are?... idk, I think we have these preconceived ideas about each other which are not completely accurate. I just want more time with you, NEED more time lel. And at the same time, I'm still trying to figure MYself out too!!So,,, god, I love you so much, I want you so much. Youre a part of my heart now, there's no throwing you to the curb. I just need a lil more real talk, n a lil less jokes? And directness. I need you to be open honest and direct about how you feel about ANYthingDec 12, 2014You are amazing. I think you are amazing, i want to spend my time with you. I need you. I need you WAY more than im getting, and i don't know how to deal. Its heartbreaking, gut-wrenching, to be away from you for so long, so often. I need a relationship with you, and at this rate, we're not able to build that up. This whole yr so far, it's been hurting me to be away from you, but now, lately, it's even hurting me to spend time with you. How can we make this work? If we don't figure it out, then I need to get out, and I don't want to do that.Dec 15I'm far beyond done, far beyond over it. I need you to be emotionally there, and youre not really. Its breaking my heart staying with you.