Debt Sucks

At school right now in the computer lab. I am really frustrated and upset becasue yesterday I found out that one of my visas has a monthly payment of $400 and it is practically maxed out at $9000 and I dont know who to talk to or how I am going to get out of this situation. I am waiting on a decision from disability insurance and I am looking for a job but there are no bites. I really am trying some avenues that I might have otherwise turned down. I can't live with only $200 dollards that dad gives me each month. Then my money goes everywhere, to tharapists and doctors and the such. I am sick of being sick and in debt. What do I do? I never thought I would be almost $13,000 in debt. It is managable, expecially when I am staying at dads, not paying for foom or lodging. I suppose I can always go to mom's if I needed to as well. I just want to know if this is normal. I know that bipolars have massive manic spending issues, but now I have a credit card with a monthly payment of $400... What, should I just not pay that amount and pay the amount that I can? Will they fine me badly for that? I hate this... why did I spend so much money? It got to far and I am still spending more and more money. Because of this the suicidal thoughts are coming back. It scares me but it would take away the problem of debt. But, would it be easier to just let my parents know so they can help and that way they don't have to lose me? I don't want to do that because I'll lose independance from them. Maybe just leaving, just going to Chiccago will be good for me. Maybe I can get a job there and make some money. I wonder is dad would pay for out of state tuition if it was for UIC. I have to get to homework.
 
Goodnight moon