dealing with the changes within

I know we all go through changes during the day and we all

have to deal with them and come back to center and remember

ourselves and our responsibilities.

Last night was no exception and it was indeed a struggle

to get working this morning. But taking it one step forward

at a time - I really just had to do that.

I was struggling to find soothing wisdoms while I worked

a somehow vision that this too shall pass and that I can learn from

this - soothed me and calmed me for a better point or process in the future..

I will grow I thought...

Work went ok and I kind of let go of some reserve that I usually have and just

moved forward and as I left for the day I found myself just not doing things

the way I usually do them - habit reinforces the responsiblity towards my life

'so hard won' - but today I came home and ate quickly and played with Blue -

I didn't want to shower - I didn't want to eat - and I didn't want to go to Starbucks...

but I thought better to do those habits because doing them would reinforce myself

on an otherwise chaotic day.

I thought the 'animal' within us all - and how we each have to deal with it -

and yet also be rational, be responsible and be ourselves all the while

- I guess I'm seeing a lot ideals here to fulfill - I've said this in so many

ways before - but I think I just marvel at all that we are sometimes

and how we put it together each day one by one.

I'll write more later,

peace,m