Days of My Life
1-20-12 10AM Sitting here feeling bad about the things I said in anger, AGAIN If I keep smoking I will die an early and painful death no maybe no if it will kill me. QUESTION? What do I do? No more arguing -I wish I see oncologist this after noon Hello doctor I've been smoking more every day, I smoke all the marijuana I can the MM people say I'll live forever if I smoke enough. Wife believes this and necessarily smokes to excess every day no matter the cost. More when I get back from doc.
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I have made my decision, this marriage is over unless she seriously decides to seek help and try to live a clean, sober, and honest life. I cannot continue to do what I know is wrong and then do it again, and again......If I don\'t get out of this situation I will die. She refuses to leave so I have to get out or die. As usual the end of month no money, no food but she has her marijuana. So I have to leave, nowhere to go, an old truck in need of repair and a social security check. I would just sign the house over to her and just let her lose it I don\'t care about it anymore. It\'s not that simple; My father willed this house and land to my brother and I. My brother died of throat cancer from smoking in 2005. My brother and I had a verbal agreement that as long as we pay the taxes and keep the house in repair my wife and I can stay,nothing was said about what would happen in case of divorce. My wife has a son who has a room in his house all ready for her {and me} when we are too old to take care of ourselves. She refuses to go, she wouldn\'t be happy, she doesn\'t want to burden him. She says that I can go live with my sister. I told my sister about all this when I had to call her to ask her for money for medications because my wife took the money I had saved. My sister said NO WAY this was Dad\'s house and if anyone goes it has to be her. She also said I\'d better call my sister in law and let her know because it is her property. I tried to reason with my wife but she thinks that her and my sis in law are friends, she\'s crazy. The fact is that they are furious about the way she treated me when I was sick and dying, Especially sis in law who just lost her husband I survived and wife doesn\'t appreciate it enough to even smoke outside. They will eat her alive in court. But that is not my problem anymore I can only concetrate on getting better all i can do for her is pray for her.
It\'s Feb 13 I\'ve been homeless 2weeks now. No matter what I tried to do to make a real marriage she just continues to assign blame, argue, anything but just come clean be honest and take a realistic approach to our problems. It\'s her way or no way. I have no options but divorce and sell the house. When I left she was screaming in my face and throwing my things around while I was trying to get a few things and get out. Ugly situation that I will not repeat. Have to go time up on library computer.