Day One

Back on meds! I couldn't fight alone and I was drowning in my thoughts. I can deal with the physical symptoms but the incessant dread and fear is too much. I'm not enjoying life. My psychiatrist even said " you didn't go to the beach or something...you are at that where you should be enjoying life!" I explained how I can go places but I'm freaking miserable and anxious. So, today I start cymbalta at 30 mg. I'm happy since i was on it before and it was perfect. However once I started a new job I was getting panic attacks on the drive home so I was upped to 60 mg. It did not do me well and messed me up bad. I'm praying going back on 30 mg after all I've been through does help me. I just need to break through the fog. Day one I am feeling hopeful but nervous!