Day Off

I'm off today. I have an appointment at the chiropractor later. It should get my neck and shoulder feeling better. I'm debating on whether to do some shopping. It still feels like a jungle here but summer will be over soon enough and I need shoes and pants for work. A couple shirts too. I feel guiltt buying new clothes. I get most of my work clothes hand me down or from a used store but shoes are different. Idk my mom is already picking at me today. If I come home with new stuff I will never hear the end of it. It isn't fair that I don't even feel like I can shop or do little things to feel better when my mom and fiance buy whatever the hell they want. I think I will at least buy a nice pair of flats for fall.

As soon as I woke up this morning my mom started complaining about my fiance. He has been sick and left work yesterday to go to the doctor. Turns out he has very bad allergies that flare up from being outside alot. We went to the lake and did some gardening last weekend. You would think he had the flu.

I was worried about him but all my mom seems worried about is him not doing yard work. He doesn't like doing yard work, who does? I'm not gonna keep nagging him to do stuff if it makes his allergies worse.

Then she starts on how he came back from the doc and pharmacy with some cat toys for our cats, like that was dumb. He told me they were cheap for catnip toys. Of course she says he had marijuana in the bag. I hate being in the middle of this. Idk what she expects me to do. I make it clear to him all the time that I don't want him smoking anything. Mainly because of his collapsed lung last year, but also because I hate drugs. I don't want him sneaking around dealing with illegal people. My fiance and I talk about this sort of stuff pretty often. My mom bitching at me doesn't accomplish anything. I mean what am I supposed to do? Kick him out and make him homeless because on his days off he doesn't stay home with my mom and do yardwork or clean house?

I'm not sure what the compromise should be here. I mean I don't really do much on my day off. Idk where he goes or with who. If he tells me I assume he is lying anyway. I don't have anyone to do anything with on my day off so I can't relate.

He also is not one to share personal stuff. He went to a friend's house a couple weekends ago and idk what happened but they may have had a falling out. He def acted like something was wrong for a few days.

Is there something wrong in our relationship or is my mom just making things worse? She always has these schemes in her head that she thinks he is doing even tho there is no proof. I was broken for years because of how badly my ex abused me and violated my trust. I don't want to live paranoid. I want to be able to trust my fiance. It's also important that we have at least one day each to be independent and not glued together. My mom doesn't understand that. I just feel like she is always causing trouble.