Day after
So this is the first day after the big family blow up. Honestly, it felt great to just finally get it all out in the open and not have to bite my tongue anymore to his sister. Not only that but his whole family now knows why I don't and can't talk about this and the whole situation. I feel horrible that we have been going though all of this for 20 months and I can't give my husband a child. He finally admitted that it does bother him with all of this and that just made it worse. I knew that it was bothering him but for him to admit it and speak about it just blew me away! Yes I know that it will happen one way or another but why can't it happen now? I mean come on all of these other people can get pregnant but not us? We have good jobs, a house, and can provide for them. We would be great parents. Than for his dad to say I want to be a grandparent but when it happens it will happen. And if you can't have a baby DH and us we love you no matter what!! I know that but still it doesn't take that pain and bitterness away.
That's why I have joined this site, to try and get this off of my chest. I know that keeping this all inside and talking about it is not good. I want to be positive but it has been hard. I know that being on here I can talk with others in the same situation and not worry about explaining everything all of the time to them. They will not judge me or even hold anything over my head about my situation. That is how I feel with his sister. I know I have to take this one step at a time and not rush anything because that will not help our situation. I can't wait for our appointment the end of the month since we can't try this month. I think that's because they want all of the drugs out of my situation. I mean we can try but not with any help. So the next appointment is a consultation to go over everything and come up with a plan. Plus it's nice to be able to talk with Tabby and Holly about it at work. Tabby has been there and Holly is going though it right now as well. She is a feel steps behind us but she is older. We will get though this together!!!
That's why I have joined this site, to try and get this off of my chest. I know that keeping this all inside and talking about it is not good. I want to be positive but it has been hard. I know that being on here I can talk with others in the same situation and not worry about explaining everything all of the time to them. They will not judge me or even hold anything over my head about my situation. That is how I feel with his sister. I know I have to take this one step at a time and not rush anything because that will not help our situation. I can't wait for our appointment the end of the month since we can't try this month. I think that's because they want all of the drugs out of my situation. I mean we can try but not with any help. So the next appointment is a consultation to go over everything and come up with a plan. Plus it's nice to be able to talk with Tabby and Holly about it at work. Tabby has been there and Holly is going though it right now as well. She is a feel steps behind us but she is older. We will get though this together!!!
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