Day 37/38

I did have some bad news yesterday, my grandmas dog died. And it was my grandmas birthday well it would have been her 82nd birthday. She pasted away in March of this year. Her wonderful dog that kept her going the last few years just couldn't live without her. They are together now. I am sure she is happy having him by her side again. Yesterday was my last day of housekeeping too. It was a long day but it went really good. I worked my butt off but got a ten dollar tip in my last room so it was worth it. After work, I had therapy which went pretty good as well then I came home and went shopping with my mom and then out to eat for my birthday with my mom, dad and boyfriend. Then went to the kids house and had cupcakes. It was a really nice ending to the day. In therapy she asked me a question that kind of stuck with me throughout the day. She asked me when I was going to move out. Well I have thought about it but never made any real plans to. I have another two years of school so not until I am done. But it is crazy to think about actually leaving home. My boyfriend and I have talked about it as well. He still lives at home with his parents too. We discussed moving in together and that but IDK it got me thinking about the future. I know its a wild thought but when I had my last psychic reading the woman didn't say anything about a man in my near future. She talked about my successes and that but not about my boyfriend. It upset me that when I asked about him all she said was we both have some growing up to do. Does this mean we aren't going to be together? I can''t imagine a reason we'd break up and I asked him about it to and he can't think of one either. I love him and he loves me. We've been together for two solid years, we rarely fight, we have so much fun together, were both smart, fun loving people who really click. Whats wrong that we'd break up? The only thing I can think of is that it would be my fault. What I want to do is work my butt off to get my masters, and succeed in my profession and I can see myself pushing him off to the side. Not that I want to do that but I am focused on my dreams and my passion, not entirely on him. Most men don't like that but right now he doesn't seem to mind because we both have a lot going on. He has his car and is focused on work and going to shows so he doesn't mind me not always being there. But come 5 years or so it may take its toll. I don't want to loose him or the relationship we've built but that psychic made me think like that. We may grow apart. It hurts to think about. I can't imagine being with anyone else. Idk thats years ahead right? I am just going to play the hand I was dealt and if it doesn't work out I will deal with it. But in my heart I know I want it too. I have always had guy troubles. I always picked the wrong ones. I have been lied to, cheated on,and so on countless times, but with my boyfriend now its not like that at all. Hes the best man I have ever had. It is so nice not to have to worry about him. We just fit together so nice. It is one less stress off my mind, but here I am again trying to find fault in it. I do this too much, find fault in things where there is none. I don't wanna ruin my relationship because of what a psychic said. 
 
Today I am off, I am off all weekend then I start my new job monday! I am really happy to have these few days off. I need them. I slept in today and it was amazing sleep! I have nothing really that important to do and I love it!! I am just going with the flow and doing whatever and it feels great! I have had minimal anxiety and negative thoughts and that is just what I need. I am really relaxed today. It is like a million degrees today though. Maybe I'll go swimming or something. I don't know what the day has in store but I can't wait to find out. =)