Day 3 of Vacation

My last vacation for this year started on Friday. I have been looking forward to getting away from work. And yet, I miss it. I keep thinking about random things at work, I keep having dreams pertaining to work. I need to get it out of my mind, it's only fair, I've earned this break.

I know it's anxiety. I know that when I come back next week, everything will be a wreck and there's nothing I will be able to do about it since it's the week of Christmas and it'll be too busy.

I was able to work on all of my tasks before I left, though. The store manager even stopped me and told me to get them done. And I did. I did leave one task undone. It was either work through it, or do everything else. So nobody was probably happy about that, but I have a few supervisors that love doing that task - most of the time they won't let me do it. Hopefully they've cleaned that up by now.

But I can't keep thinking about it all. There's nothing I can do right now. It's my time away. My time to focus on something else - like all the housework that I haven't done because I've been too exhausted or too depressed to think about it. I very much want to get so many things done this week. And maybe that's overwhelming me as well.

I have done very little Christmas shopping. I haven't put up the tree yet or wrapped any of the presents that I have gotten. And this Saturday is my niece's first birthday and it's at my house so I have to prepare for that.

I spent most of yesterday relaxing and doing very little. Today, I want to start preparing what I need to get done this week. I'm going to make a list to help organize it all in my brain. And I'll enlist my family to get some of it done as well.

just writing this all down has helped.