Day 25/26

Another couple busy days. I am so slacking on writing, its horrible. I am really gonna try to get on here everyday, its just been so hard lately. Every day is filled to the brim and by the time I have time to sit I am so tired I fall right to sleep. Happened to me the other night actually Friday night, I was at my boyfriends friends house and fell asleep sitting on his couch lol. But anyways yesterday I worked in the morning then came home around 3 to have a fathers day get together at our house. It was nice I made dessert, brownies and ate way too much, he he. My dad had a good time, I was happy he was happy, hes still sober, it is so nice! the kids were over, and we all played til it was dark out, we drew with chalk, did gymnastics,  played catch and even had a pretty nice baseball game going in the backyard with boys vs. girls, my niece who is 10 and I  vs. my boyfriend and my nephew who is 7. They kept saying how much fun they were having and it made me happy, it was a lot of fun. I was sore this morning from all the activity of the day. After the party, the kids went home and my boyfriend went out with his friend, who is having a difficult time right now. I didn't mind, he wanted me to come but I declined. I needed sleep and they needed man time. Plus I wasn't in the mood to watch them drink. My boyfriend doesn't drink that often, but his friend does. He and his ex broke up two years ago and hes not over her, he constantly goes to the bars trying to fill the void, then he out of blue quit his job this past week, so now hes unemployed, lonely and depressed. I feel bad for him but he needs to want to get better. He has a bit of a drinking problem which is why she left him in the first place but he doesn't see that, he just keeps going back to the bottle. His ex is my friend, the one who introduced me to my boyfriend now. The reason we met was them so I owe it to them both to help them. They are both lost. She after they broke up went on a guy rampage dating guy after guy looking for love, but she never found it. Well I can't say that she has a guy now but IDK how thats going because she still talks to my boyfriends friend. OH, IDK I am glad I am not them. I used to dwell on lost loves all the time, I was a cereal dater at one time and couldn't be alone, then one day I woke up and said enough is enough. I DON'T NEED A MAN. I took an entire year off of dating and it was the best year of my life. Until I met my boyfriend now that is. But I NEEDED THAT BREAK. and I feel they do too. YOU NEED TIME TO HEAL. I know that now more than ever. Time doesn't completely heal all wounds, but it sure helps. I have been doing good the last few days, I am really excited to start my new job and my anxieties have been minimal. I have been worn out I've worked like everyday, but tomorrow I have the day off. SLLEEEEEEPinggg is were I will be, hopefully. I could use a nap now but I have to go to my boyfriends to celebrate fathers day there with his family. Were gonna cook out and relax it should be fun too. Then I am sleeping in, haha can't wait! I am doing alright. I am happy. I worked so hard for this, moments like these where everything is on the up and up. Time to enjoy it. =)