Day 18/19/20

So Friday night went really good actually I calmed down after writing and had a pretty awesome time out with my friend for her graduation dinner. It was her , her boyfriend, my boyfriend and me. We went out to eat and then came back to my house and played board games. I feel horrible about how upset I got about the graduation it wasn't that bad I guess. Its just hard seeing those people. The mean looks and unfriendly tude it just set me off. But the night ended good. Then Saturday I worked in the morning and then went to my boyfriends car show, it was a chill fun afternoon. Everyone is always impressed with the work he did on his car. Hes pretty young to be that good. I am proud of him. Nothing significantly bad happened Saturday, I wasn't home all day so I couldn't write then yesterday I worked and came home and slept. I am off today though, which I am really excited about! I have tons to do around here, and I need a day off every now and again. Yesterday one of the new girls quit so we had extra work, hopefully they hire someone who won't quit on us. I bust my hump trying to keep up with my work plus someone elses. But I just keep telling myself, think of the money, and it looks good on you because you're dedicated. I really am. I work really hard at work. These last few days have been good. I have been pretty tired so I am not worrying so much.  I got a call back from that job interview and I made it to a second interview! I can redeem myself! I really hope I get this job. I need to build nursing experience and I don't want to loose all my skills. I really am headed in the right direction though. With everything. I lost my cool Friday but other than that I have been going strong. My negative thoughts have since then been quite and I have been thinking positively about this upcoming job interview and my accident. I haven't had anymore bad dreams about like I had the other night, it was so scary. I slept like a rock the last few nights. I feel strong today. I feel like today will be a good one. I am smiling so that is always a good sign. With help from above I can do this, I know I can.