Day 13

   I don't feel so upbeat as I was the past few days. Seem to have a lot of negative shit going through my mind. The thing with Tim is still bugging me. I went to the meeting last night, but didn't stay. It was a birthday for somebody I know. Seems weird having a birthday for doing what you should be doing, and thats living proper, and clean. I am happy for them tho. I know a year is a long time, and yea, we need a pat on the back sometimes. My other freind was depressed yesterday about her mother. I'm not sure about the whole story about that. Usually we end our conversations very well, but last night she just seemened to leave it. Made me feel bad after. With the situation with Tim, and then her not saying goodbye, I had this very lonely feeling. I don't understand whats all going on with her mother. It was like she was dieing now, but last night she was saying that her father wanted her to come there for the summer. Just not sure what that's all about. Anyway, I'm clean today. Thank God.