Dave v Smokey.

Dave v Smokey.  I am in a conflict but will figure it out myself.  God helps me along the way as to do what is right or correct.  I am trying to figure out why I pick the same type of men again and again.  I have not had that great of luck with the men in my life.  A lot of them were not good men.  Smokey was the love of my life.  Smokey was not perfect either.  Neither am I.  No one is perfect on this planet.  It is the little quirks in our personalities.  Can we can live those quirks in another person?  Can they live with the little quirks in our personalities?  Some are not so little.   It is these not so little quirks that I have to figure out for myself.  I have come along way but there are a few things I have to really contemplate and pray about.     Life is not easy.  It would have been a lot simpler if God did not allow my Smokey to die in the first place.  I don't like where I am at the moment.  It all sucks.   On the bright side, the sun is shining outside.  I had a good lunch, conversation and game of Yahtzee with my brother Don.  My grandson Tyson is the current love of my life.  Babies are so easy to deal with as they are innocent.  There is no subterfuge with babies.  What you see is what you get!  It is a good thing.  I wish my life were a lot simpler and a lot easier.  It is  not.  I am getting through one day at a time.  I can't complain too much as God keeps His hands on me and doesn't let me go.  I can sigh and leave everything in God's hands.  
All the best to those that have figure out their own lives and are doing good from Diane Baillie