Dave is into sports (not me) & I still miss my Smokey.

Dave is into sports and not me.  He loves to watch football, hockey and baseball.  I am not into sports at all.  Last night Dave, Rob and Alla were watching the hockey game.  I was bored out of my skull.  I am not sure what to make of it or do about it.  Dave has a 2nd TV in the bedroom.  I was thinking while they are watching their sports, I could watch the TV in the bedroom.  For some reason, Dave likes to pick me up after his work, bring me to his place, cook dinner, watch TV and go to bed together.  It's not a bad routine except for the fact that Dave loves his sports.  I never have ever been with a man in my life who loves sports.  This is all new to me.  Since this is unchartered territory for me, I would like to know what you make of it or what I should do about it.  It is not a reason to break up with the man.  Every other way, we are good together and I could not ask for a better man to come into my life after Smokey died.  On the other hand, it is going to be coming up to the one year mark since Smokey died and I could be a tad more sensitive or emotional at this point in my life.  I miss Smokey so much.  He was the love of my life and my soul mate.  I could not have asked for a better partner.    I could tell by just the look in his eyes his love and vice-versa.  Dave is a good man and I don't want to hurt him.  When I get like this, I tend to pull away and withdraw, which is not good.  I could see spending the rest of my life with Dave if all goes well.  There are so many variables that can hurt any relationship.  With dealing with the one year anniversary of Smokey's death, I am in a vulnerable state at the moment.  I didn't think I would ever live this long after Smokey died.  Every good man has his flaws.  I used to call him my grumpy old man and Smokey would agree with me.   Smokey knew his own flaws and would ask for my forgiveness once a year.  It takes an intelligent and caring man to do this.  I bring all this up because I could not sleep very well last night.  It is because I am almost entering menopause, one year anniversary of Smokey's death, no job prospects yet and Dave's sports that play into this factor.  I am totally stressed out.  Not only that but on Oct. 22 I have a lunch date with my two friends.  On Oct. 23, I have one jewelery party and a $15.00 concert to go to.  Monies extremely tight with me so what am I doing?  Am I crazy or what?  These are all stresses for me and play into the factor of my emotions and why I could not sleep well last night.  Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy and why do I want to be here on this planet called earth any more?
These are my thoughts and feelings from Diane Baillie