Daily Strength

This site has not always been a healthy place for me. But it has been at times. It was a friend when I had no one to talk to. I know for a fact that it saved my life once or twice. For that I am glad, and for that reason I don't delete it. Or I delete it then bring it back, even though most of my friends are gone and their accounts deleted. The lot of us were twisted up and unsure, relying on other twisted up people for support. But what is to be done when everything is frantic and healthy people aren't listening? It helped to tell someone that did not judge. I know I helped others when I listened and did not judge. That is enough for me. The rest is unimportant.
When I first came to the site it was because I couldn't get over my miscarriage and wanted to talk about it. My mom's death as well. I couldn't stop thinking about her and it was sometimes grief, sometimes anger but all handled very unhealthily. 
In some crazy way I was helped by being around others like me, but I know it was also best that I took off for awhile. I've been writing a lot and that's a good thing to be sure. It's something that produces, something that teaches me to follow goals. But I am still very lonely sometimes. My children are grown and I am nearly alone completely. Isn't that funny that I try to be alone as much as possible because it feels comforting, then I feel lonely. I suppose that is part of it. I deal with it as best as I can, I pray often and that helps.