Day 5

   Feel pretty good this morning. Had a good sleep last night. I phoned Bruce, my sponsor in A.A. last night. I asked him to come to the Sobriety Center so we could talk. He came and we had a very good talk. Seemed in a way like an interview. I told him all about myself, and the problems as I know them. I also asked about his sobriety and how he goes about keeping it. He has twenty three years of sobriety. He used to drink hard stuff, was verbally abusive to his family, and got in trouble lots with the law. At the end all he thought about was suicide. He now does all kinds of community things, even does things to help with the police, and they respect him now, and some are his freinds. He has done the steps, and continues doing them on a regular basis. He has a good relationship with his wife and kids, and has four grand kids now. I really liked what I heard. He goes to church also with his wife. I asked him if he would help me, and he said he would. I feel very good about this. I'm taking this as a gift. I'm not at all confident, but I am going to do my best. I told Dillon after. I know Dillon is very busy sometimes, and he just won't be able to be there when I need him. I'm going to continue to work with Dillon also tho. So things are going well. I felt so peaceful last night before I slept. I think I'm definetly on the right track now. Stay with me Lord.