Cutting feeling suicide

I'm tired of this thing called life. I want out of my head...DID, flash backs memories I'm so done. I did my job raised my kids to adulthood. Can I leave this earth now God. I  have lost all desire to continue..Should I take all my pills? I already slit my rist but that stopped bleeding. I could try to call my theropyst but she usually doesn't get my messages till the next day. Alot of good that does me now...Bye everyone!