Cut.... yet again

 WARNING:  For those of you who don't self injure this may seem weird to you.  And most importantly to those of you who do self-injure it may be TRIGGERING. Many of you from the SI board probably know most of my story, but I started cutting two years ago and basically have been trying to stop ever since.  But those of you who know about SI know that it is like alcohol.  Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.  You still get the urges. Anyway, I got home from church today which always makes me angry anyway.  I don't remember what happened, but my mom said something to me.  She wasn't looking at me because she was cooking, so I grabbed the scissors and cut my wrist really fast.  I didn't want it to bleed.  I just wanted to scratch myself.  But when I looked down it had already started bleeding.  It was already bleeding more than it usually does so I ran into the bathroom. I wrote "I hate me" on the bathroom floor with the blood before I tried to clean the cut up. I have had stories like this before, none of which have been this weird.  People keep telling me that it's ok to make mistakes but I make them all the time.  I don't know what I want people to say.  I guess I just want people to reply if you have the time.  Thanks.