Current thoughts

Well it’s been 28 days since I’ve last seen or talked to my ex. To be honest, I felt the last time I saw her it would be the last time I saw her, or at least for awhile. She had broken down and had a look on her face like she knew that she could no longer try to have me and her guy at the same time. But i was fooled by all her crying, and thought that meant she loved me and would pick me. But she cried till she almost fell out, and still didn’t choose me. I know she’s not good for me but I miss her. I know there’s other women out there, but I want her. I guess the feelings I had for her were very strong. I found myself today thinking, how will I ever find another woman again, who I would want to open my heart too. No one will except me the way she did. Now I know that’s crazy, but that was what I was thinking. I’ve prayed for this situation in so many different ways but, I’ll just pray that Gods will be done. And where ever that put me, then so shall it be.