Crying, not sleeping, and just yuck
I have had 3 hours of sleep the last 2 nights. I am so tired. When I get this tired I can'r focus, I cry over everything and nothing and get so chilled it seems impossible to warm up.
I feel like a big baby who just wants to be held and soothed. I wish I had my big teddy bear back. The one I had in that awful Christmas photo. Maybe not that one....bad memories.
I am trying to watch a movie just to keep awake a little bit longer so I don't fall asleep too early and wake up at 3 am. The movie is triggering me. Too much sex in it. It is gross to me. Bodies too close...touching. I can smell the skin. That awful smell.
Time to get under the blankets and read a book.
I feel like a big baby who just wants to be held and soothed. I wish I had my big teddy bear back. The one I had in that awful Christmas photo. Maybe not that one....bad memories.
I am trying to watch a movie just to keep awake a little bit longer so I don't fall asleep too early and wake up at 3 am. The movie is triggering me. Too much sex in it. It is gross to me. Bodies too close...touching. I can smell the skin. That awful smell.
Time to get under the blankets and read a book.
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Have you been to your doc for something to help you sleep? I start going nuts after one night of less than 8 hours. You poor thing. I hope things have gotten better! :)