CRAZY WEEK!

10-24-09:  What a crazy week!  White-out day was on Scott's 24th birthday. (Thursday, October 22)  Seeing the Grim Reaper come into every class, all day, was hard!  I did have to go to the bathroom, one time, and just cry.  It was TOUGH! Also, on Thursday, my sister-in-law's husband passed away from cancer.  His visitation is tomorrow.  We were not close but it is hard on the family.   And, one of our close friends brother's is in critical condition.  He has double pneumonia and acute respirortory distress.  He is just 51.   It seems everywhere I look there is insanity of some sort!  I guess it has always been this way but I was not as aware as I am now.  Now, I understand true pain and suffering.  I guess I just pay more attention and feel the pain of others more. Work is still a bit crazy.  But I do find myself enjoying my job.  I miss the kids from my other class but the kids I am working with now give me joy, too.  It is just different.  I am just trying to fly under the radar, for now. I was really sick, again, the week of the 11th.  I stayed home from work three days.  I am nervous about missing work given everything that has been going on.  But, I truly was sick.  One day I didn't even shower!!!  If you don't know me that might not seem so odd.  But, if you do, you would know I shower EVERY day and sometimes twice if I feel icky!  In my twenty-five years of marriage, this is only the second time I have missed a daily shower.  Craig teased me about it.... I am on the mend, I think.  I have been so sick, so often, since Scott died.  I have read that is not unusual.  But, I am truly tired of getting sick!  I guess I just got so low and every germ sees me as an easy target. I am getting a flu shot Friday.  I don't care so much about it but Craig is really pushing me.  I usually get one, anyway.  But, since I have health issues and can get one free, I wait until a clinic is available.  Not this year....Craig is insisting I get it and pay for it!  On one hand that is annoying.  On the other, at least he cares!  So, such is life....I am continuing to take one breath at a time.