crazy appetite
crazy appetite and not getting my needs met.
I was lying in bed - trying to go to sleep, and from the mysterious
depth I found my body pressuring me down -
I slowly realized that I had this crazy appetite and lots of emotion - it felt
like something was wrong - and then I started to think
how the frugalness of my life right now - and little social contact is really
not giving to my needs or my needs are not being met... at least I can say that for tonight.
I started to think about when I lived in Toronto. When I felt like eating I ate,
when felt like leaving my condo and taking a walk around the neighborhood
I did - I shopped - I explored - I went to the local watering holes and drank a beer or two-
I smoked an occasional cigarette and I talked to people about their experiences
and ideas.
I feel wiser now about a lot of things but I definitely have that yearning in me.
Perhaps this is something I need to learn to give to again.
I'll try to go back to bed.
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I've wondered a time or 50 if humanity's single biggest waste of natural resources is good hearted folk who are afraid to trust their big ol' hearts. In other words, if you are taking votes, I vote you do, indeed learn to give that something again.
Post marshal law, of course. The only freedom allowed by marshal law is to stay lonely and fearful.
thanks arfie!