Craving Men
I am bored and lonely and a bit depressed and I'm craving men. I want to go on a date or have a man tell me I'm pretty or get hugged or kissed. This I know that I cannot have right now so what do I do instead?
Why am I so lost without a man to focus on?
I don't have any friends. I have acquaintances and people to hang with but no one who I can really talk to. My family is useless in this way, as well as they are never around so it's just me and my kids .. A LOT. Not that my kids aren't entertaining and time consuming because they are but I crave adult companionship. I crave excitment. Everything seems so drab and boring to me.
I guess these men getting back in contact opened up the floodgates again. I'm teetering on my fragile bridge of self-sufficiency. I just don't know what to do when I am feeling this way. I know it is sort of victim - loserish thinking but I can't seem to snap out of it.
I can't figure out what is wrong with me these days and I HATE it. I don't want to go to a man to fix this feeling because it never works but I wish I knew what direction to take or what to focus on to get me out of it.
Exciting things are supposed to happen on Saturday night and all I have to look forward to is laundry!
Why am I so lost without a man to focus on?
I don't have any friends. I have acquaintances and people to hang with but no one who I can really talk to. My family is useless in this way, as well as they are never around so it's just me and my kids .. A LOT. Not that my kids aren't entertaining and time consuming because they are but I crave adult companionship. I crave excitment. Everything seems so drab and boring to me.
I guess these men getting back in contact opened up the floodgates again. I'm teetering on my fragile bridge of self-sufficiency. I just don't know what to do when I am feeling this way. I know it is sort of victim - loserish thinking but I can't seem to snap out of it.
I can't figure out what is wrong with me these days and I HATE it. I don't want to go to a man to fix this feeling because it never works but I wish I knew what direction to take or what to focus on to get me out of it.
Exciting things are supposed to happen on Saturday night and all I have to look forward to is laundry!
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