Counting down the hours... :]
Hi everyone,
Well, I'm counting down the hours until midnight tonight; I will be GF for two months. :] Things have been going well and not really having any desire to go gambling, thank goodness. I have been so busy with other things and along the way several sort of magical things have begun to happen - - I mean all positive and timely; it seems opportunities are just there when I'm not even looking for them. Or unexpected happy moments. The other day one of our employees walked in to the lunchroom with some beautiful designer purses for about a third the cost of retail.. anyway, I fell in love with one of them and purchased it - it's just beautiful and something that a) I wouldn't have been able to purchase for myself at retail . . . b) if I was gambling there would be "0" money to purchase it even at the great price. and c) It was so hard to do ANYTHING nice for myself at that point because my self-esteem was very low and I guess subconsiously I didn't feel I deserved nice things . . . yet I would put hundreds of $$ into those crazy machines but not spend it on myself. Anyone else experience this? Also had a pleasant surprise when my boss called us into a meeting for a few announcements - - - part of it was she read a letter about me to the staff from a lady that I had worked with to get her a job with us. She raved about me providing such outstanding service, etc. it was funny that I actually felt embarrassed even though I do know that I have a passion for providing really good service.... anyway, that was a nice surprise to be recognized for hard work.
Hope all is well with everyone - oh - another thing I'm thankful for - we had our tax appointment and don't owe - - -yay; that darn IRS . . we pay them way too much already.
Hugs to all,
Smokeygirl
Well, I'm counting down the hours until midnight tonight; I will be GF for two months. :] Things have been going well and not really having any desire to go gambling, thank goodness. I have been so busy with other things and along the way several sort of magical things have begun to happen - - I mean all positive and timely; it seems opportunities are just there when I'm not even looking for them. Or unexpected happy moments. The other day one of our employees walked in to the lunchroom with some beautiful designer purses for about a third the cost of retail.. anyway, I fell in love with one of them and purchased it - it's just beautiful and something that a) I wouldn't have been able to purchase for myself at retail . . . b) if I was gambling there would be "0" money to purchase it even at the great price. and c) It was so hard to do ANYTHING nice for myself at that point because my self-esteem was very low and I guess subconsiously I didn't feel I deserved nice things . . . yet I would put hundreds of $$ into those crazy machines but not spend it on myself. Anyone else experience this? Also had a pleasant surprise when my boss called us into a meeting for a few announcements - - - part of it was she read a letter about me to the staff from a lady that I had worked with to get her a job with us. She raved about me providing such outstanding service, etc. it was funny that I actually felt embarrassed even though I do know that I have a passion for providing really good service.... anyway, that was a nice surprise to be recognized for hard work.
Hope all is well with everyone - oh - another thing I'm thankful for - we had our tax appointment and don't owe - - -yay; that darn IRS . . we pay them way too much already.
Hugs to all,
Smokeygirl
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