Counseling went very well today

I went to see my counsler she just made me feel so much better. It really is hard to admit that your  family really is screwed up we talked about me stepping back from the relationship I have with my Mom. She said that I will feel grief, guilt just as if someone I loved has died. But most importnat is that she told me that if  I was as crazy as I feel sometimes, that I wouldn't even reconigze the fact that the relationship is really toxic. I set boundries with my MOm which just set her off, she doesn't like to be told that she 's not a perfect Mom it really upsets her, we discussed maybe thats the way she deals with the guilt. I had been at her beck and call all my life  with her controlling and judging me all the way. She has always made me feel like a piece of crap that only she could love, that I should be lucky that I had her.It was hard to admit that I was always better when I lived far away from her. And i remember that yeah I really did feel better..  I' feel better at the moment. something I haven't felt in awhile..