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i can do better by myself. id b back in control & this time God would b with me 2.  sharing control can b acomfort sometimes but often it is taxing and stressful. right now i dont trust him. there is no guarantee that he wont cheat again.  how many times shd i forgive this.  and this time i may nvr know.  hell hide it better.  hell he hid this affair 4 2 years. 2 fucking years.  its very likely that if he cheated again id never know.  so why not get my own and just be friends and parents.  and let this other bullshit go.