confused and depressed

not so sure about anything relationship my own feelings am i just messed up beyond help i can only hear the phrase i cant believe you were that stupid what were you thinking so on and so forth so i did something very stupid and now i cant stand myself others dont need to beat me up verbally also i do a great job at that myself with no help from anyone else i am rather depressed and dont know where to go from here but i do know one thing it was stupid of me to do i appologize i cant get into details it is just too much for me at the moment to get into i will work this out i always do just need to be patient maybee at a later time i can talk about this but this is my first step putting it down to try to get the thoughts the brain going