Confused

Dear Kitty,             It's me again.             Got an email from Fraser today; I don't know how to respond, really. It basically just says that I can phone him or Hector whenever I want to SH. I want to be able to phone people, I really do, but I just don't know how to speak to people when I feel like that. I don't know what to do; I would love someone just to be there for whenever I want to do it, and not make me talk about it, just distract me instead. I don't know what to do. And nothing's really changed since Monday; I still feel like that. I can't help but feel that there is no point to me at all; nobody ever really seems to care. I just feel so alone. I doubt that anyone would even miss me if I did go.I'm sorry; I've really got to stop writing like this.I love you.Francesca.