Confessions
Secret Confession: AshamedI wait for my bf to fall asleep so i can sneak off the bed, put clothes on and crawl back in, because the hate i have for my body is so great i cant stand the feel of my skin on his, becuase his skkin is taut and muscular and mine is flabby and fat.In the morning, when those eyes turn to me and ask why i always have clothes on when he wakes, and i lie to that perfect beautiful face, wave it off with, i needed to pee. and he kisses me before leaving for work in the dark.... And as he turns the knife sticks out his back and the worst part is... he doesnt even know its there. How does someone hate themself that much? that being touched by the one they love repulses them. and how do you tell him that you love him with everything you are when all you believe you are is nothing?where did all this hate come from?and why is it all i can hear in my head?For every tear that falls, i know im saving him another heart ache, because how can he love somthing i hate?
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People can love you, even if you don\'t love yourself. However, they do pick up on the fact that you don\'t love you. Maybe he sees you different than you see yourself. I said maybe, but there is no maybe to it. Sounds like you are hurting so bad, and being ashamed of your body is hard to handle. I would say look at the positive things, but how do you do that when you are hurting? I don\'t have any answers, but to just think about the fact he does love you, for you, or he would not be with you
He does. and i dont know how he does it.
i really like your comment, you dont have a fix it but you get it. which means more than someone trying to fix it.
thanks hunnie
i\'m sorry you feel so ashamed. i feel that way too, i never let anyone see my body. just remember you\'re so so beautiful
i wish i felt it babey :)
i kinda like the way i look in clothes. if i wear the right things but without them, i just an repulsed.