Confessions

Secret Confession: AshamedI wait for my bf to fall asleep so i can sneak off the bed, put clothes on and crawl back in, because the hate i have for my body is so great i cant stand the feel of my skin on his, becuase his skkin  is taut and muscular and mine is flabby and fat.In the morning, when those eyes turn to me and ask why i always have clothes on when he wakes, and i lie to that perfect beautiful face, wave it off with, i needed to pee. and he kisses me before leaving for work in the dark.... And as he turns the knife sticks out his back and the worst part is... he doesnt even know its there. How does someone hate themself that much? that being touched by the one they love repulses them. and how do you tell him that you love him with everything you are when all you believe you are is nothing?where did all this hate come from?and why is it all i can hear in my head?For every tear that falls, i know im saving him another heart ache, because how can he love somthing i hate?