Complex but good
I’m starting to realize that to get healthy and to
Have relationships I submitted myself to great
Suppression to give my intellect the power to understand my life and relationships.
The nature of being here at the monastery now is revealing that people try and get between you and your relationship with yourself. I’m waking up to the fact that I don’t like it and I’m not all that comfortable all the time and resentment is piling up. But I’m able to negotiate the fact and be a good friend to the people in my life whom I love. I’m seeing who i really am I think.
One therapist talked about people having a hard time with the mixture in them of the feelings of love and hate. I think it’s more like accepting that you love folks but you’re also an individual with real emotions. Accepting yourself both negative and positive aspects is important.
Im realizing too by accepting the negative in me im not so unconsciously turning on a dime but I have a full sense of myself and my history
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I think, as people dealing with mental illness, that we have a low tolerance for other people's 'games', even if they don't realize they're playing them.
Lies, manipulation, trying to get people on their side, even the criticisms when we are Too open or honest....it mostly just frustrates us.
And you're going to find that kind of behavior Anywhere there are people.
Life with people is an ongoing challenge. Personally, I am Much more comfortable with myself than with any other. But sometimes I just Have to be with others.
So I learn balance. I try to keep My head fairly empty of noise when I am with them. It helps.
You are intelligent and have a busy mind, Mark, but most people don't, and they come at things differently.
Thanks Mary Anne!! Brilliant!!
I think communal living would be tough
Especially when it's pretty much 24/7
I can't remember if you meditate or not sweetie?
My old GP swore by mindfulness
It may really help in your situation
There are videos free on youtube if you'd want to give it a try
Big hug...xo
Thanks Janet, you are an angel!