Company

I have had my sisters over the past weekend and now my mom is here till this Friday when we will go to a funeral and then i will drive her home. I feel very guilty about saying i am finding it hard to have company. Feeling much more weepy then usual. I think i am on auto-pilot most of the time and it seems to work okay in this point of the journey. Now with my mom here she wants to talk about feelings. and because she is 86 i feel i have to bottle it up for her. Protect her from this darkness. She is good to have around but  24 hours a day is a little much right now. As well I am not looking forward to seeing Larry's mom this weekend. With her dementia most of the time she forgets Larry is gone and when she remembers it seems very fresh and painful for her. I miss you so. It is so hard dealing with my grief i find it overwhelming to deal with other peoples grief.
 

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dschwartz
dschwartz

I totally understand. Sometimes, we simply need \"space\" to make room for our own grief. I don\'t think I could handle my mom 24/7 right now either. Sorry mom, but true. And a funeral on top? Me oh my, no wonder you are feeling weepy and overwhelmed. Remember, you have the right to set boundaries and say \"no\". We have to take care of self first before we can be effective for others. I\'ll be thinking of you. Hugs, D
bookdragon
bookdragon

Thanks for the pep talk. just venting. It is never as bad as we think it is going to be!