Coming up on 4 months post op
Three days till I am 4 months post op... What an adventure this has been! I only weigh 1 x per month and the 4th weigh in is fast approaching.
I want to be ever so honest here. This last month has been the T O U G H E S T so far! The head work and head games are so huge! I have found out that when the stress hits so do the munchies! Guess I already knew this, but until your knee deep in it, sometimes its just a concept :)
I don't know what the scale is going to tell me... I am thinking with the extra nibbling I've done, it won't be as friendly of a loss as last month (which was 12.5 lbs)... But I promised myself I will NOT use "only" in the same sentence as "lost".... so whatever it is, whatever the number reflected back to me on that scale, I am sure it will be smaller than my last weigh in of 244.5. And I will be grateful! This is my promise to myself! And if it reflects something in the 230's, I will cry! (I just know it!)...
I am working hard to grasp hold of my personal power and pull back the slide I feel like I've been having. Its nothing huge, just a few more carbs, a few more calories... I was staying around 900 calories a day, and I think I've been more like 1000 this last month... I sent an email to my NUT to ask for her input... and to have her tell me to reign it in.... (Sometimes hearing her tell me is all I need to get a grip!).
I have overeaten a couple times... one time to the point I was sick! And I was soooo angry with myself! But I have forgiven myself and hopefully learned from the experience... beating myself up over and over for it won't get me anywhere!
So... I gotta go do my homework... but i wanted to pop in and give an update. I'll come back and report 4th weigh in over the weekend... :)
I want to be ever so honest here. This last month has been the T O U G H E S T so far! The head work and head games are so huge! I have found out that when the stress hits so do the munchies! Guess I already knew this, but until your knee deep in it, sometimes its just a concept :)
I don't know what the scale is going to tell me... I am thinking with the extra nibbling I've done, it won't be as friendly of a loss as last month (which was 12.5 lbs)... But I promised myself I will NOT use "only" in the same sentence as "lost".... so whatever it is, whatever the number reflected back to me on that scale, I am sure it will be smaller than my last weigh in of 244.5. And I will be grateful! This is my promise to myself! And if it reflects something in the 230's, I will cry! (I just know it!)...
I am working hard to grasp hold of my personal power and pull back the slide I feel like I've been having. Its nothing huge, just a few more carbs, a few more calories... I was staying around 900 calories a day, and I think I've been more like 1000 this last month... I sent an email to my NUT to ask for her input... and to have her tell me to reign it in.... (Sometimes hearing her tell me is all I need to get a grip!).
I have overeaten a couple times... one time to the point I was sick! And I was soooo angry with myself! But I have forgiven myself and hopefully learned from the experience... beating myself up over and over for it won't get me anywhere!
So... I gotta go do my homework... but i wanted to pop in and give an update. I'll come back and report 4th weigh in over the weekend... :)
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