coming down to earth

Yesterday and this morning I had a raging headache.

I went to work this morning and kept on with things....

I was at a loss as to how I could manage with my inner turmoil and mental storm

...no coping tools

or thoughts seemed to help...nothing.
Then at the last half hour of work I thought "I have a mental illness"

and at that moment - I came down to earth.

It was a point of reference that seemed to keep

me and my perspective with others there in a framework....like a measuring stick/boundary...

I no longer believed the delusion of my illness that everyone else

was raging and angry too, as I was with myself. I calmed down

and had an open mind. I drove home and called my therapist just

to check in about this. Just to tell her my thoughts.

I called my Father and I called my Stepmom

just to thank them for having me over for dinner last night.

I am settling down.

Now onto a relaxing routine after eating lunch. Today is about health

and good self care. Peace you guys!!