Coming down but not apart.

I'm on the Auraria campus and I was supposed to start my only summer on-campus class this afternoon, but not only am I afraid of science, but I looked at the work and time involved in the course and it was immense, so before even going to the class I went to see the instructor and I drooped the course. I don't know what to do with my time every Tuesday and thursday now. I don't want to tell my mom that I dropped that course because she would be pissed. She wants me to be out of the house and doing something with me time. I know that today I am going to just go to a movie and forget about it. 
 
Last night on my way home someone slammed into the back of my car and completely messed it up. Now I had to rent a car even though it is an awesome dodge charger. Now I get to deal with that whole mess too. I hope it dosnt come out that I dropped this  course because I relly don't want to let mom down. But, I need something where I am not going to spend a lot of money or get into any trouble. 
 
I am really excited to go to Crested Butte this weekend. Rachael is hosting some type of get together tomorrow at her new place. I am just going to bring a bottle of champagne and drink it myself. Now that I dropped that course and I am only enrolled in online courses I am somewhat nervous about my conscious. I don't want to be a bad persona and I can't keep making these poor mistakes. I con only hope and pray that things get better from here. I keep thinking to myself that after CB and after the fourth I will get down to the grinding stone and get the work done. I just need to get to that place in my mind. I am feeling more and more now. Because I am on a low dose of seroquel and lithium and that's it. I should be lucky that have not crashed... at least not yet. We'll have to hope that doesn't happen!