Coming Back Again

Well, he's coming back... AGAIN... after being gone for ONE month. I think this is probably the " shortest " time he's ever been gone. I hope that's a " good sign " ! PLEASE God ... Please let it be a " good sign " ! 

I need something GOOD in my life right now God.. so PLEASE let him coming back prove to be a good thing ! 

I need a " room mate ", but MORE than that... I do still Love him.. and I PRAY that he does TRULY Love Me too ! 

It's extremely hard to say if he does truly love me, or not, after him leaving - and returning - back and forth - so many damn times ! I told him bluntly on the phone I'm sick and tired of him treating my heart like it's a dog's chew toy... or some sort of bouncy ball to play with ! I told him I can't keep having my heart PLAYED WITH like that ! I just can't ! ... NOT any more ! 

I pray he truly understands how serious I am about that. 

After all, this is my home, and NOT a motel !