Gwen, you little darling! Do you understand how much you've just explained? Do you understand howright you are yet? It explains EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING !!!!!I thank God for sending you!
Okay, so now I\'m a Buddha, an enlightened one. Gwen has pointed out that \"the emperor has no clothes on\" and she\'s pointed out \"the elephant in the living room\" that no one want\'s to acknowledge.
Thinking negatively has been such a part of what I do that is had become my identity. It\'s not, it\'s a behavior.
I am not an alcoholic, I am someone who drinks more alcohol that I need to satisfy a craving. It\'s a behavior; that can be changed. So is negative thinking. I am not my behaviors, my behaviors are how I\'m identified as being different from others so others can recognize me.
So I drink (drank) in order to get enough. How much is enough? Enough so that I don\'t have to drink ever again. The problem is, drinking is transient. It\'s like eating, you can\'t eat enough to be full for the rest of your life.
And here\'s another interesting question, and forgive me for asking personal questions, but here is a codependent concept to start some changes in my (our) behaviors: How much sex do I have to have to make you girls satisfied? Not sex with you, How much do I have to get from somewhere so you feel satisfied? How much do I have to drink to make you feel drunk? How happy do I have to feel to make you feel happy? How good do I have to be to satisfy you?
And the BIG one...how good do I have to BE to satisfy GOD? Can I control how God feels?
Replies
Okay, so now I\'m a Buddha, an enlightened one. Gwen has pointed out that \"the emperor has no clothes on\" and she\'s pointed out \"the elephant in the living room\" that no one want\'s to acknowledge.
Thinking negatively has been such a part of what I do that is had become my identity. It\'s not, it\'s a behavior.
I am not an alcoholic, I am someone who drinks more alcohol that I need to satisfy a craving. It\'s a behavior; that can be changed. So is negative thinking. I am not my behaviors, my behaviors are how I\'m identified as being different from others so others can recognize me.
So I drink (drank) in order to get enough. How much is enough? Enough so that I don\'t have to drink ever again. The problem is, drinking is transient. It\'s like eating, you can\'t eat enough to be full for the rest of your life.
And here\'s another interesting question, and forgive me for asking personal questions, but here is a codependent concept to start some changes in my (our) behaviors: How much sex do I have to have to make you girls satisfied? Not sex with you, How much do I have to get from somewhere so you feel satisfied? How much do I have to drink to make you feel drunk? How happy do I have to feel to make you feel happy? How good do I have to be to satisfy you?
And the BIG one...how good do I have to BE to satisfy GOD? Can I control how God feels?
Hummmm...these were meant to be rhetorical questions. The answer is I can\'t do any of those things, even if I am co-dependent.
I guess I need to be more patient, and more positive.