cleaning

Well, no wonder it is always a mess in our apartment. We have a lot of crap we dont even need.  I am taking a quick break to clear my mind.  Still no word from Sarah today.  I need to find a job where i can make money for my family, be there for my family, and show my wife that i care about what she thinks and feels.  Today I feel a little better.  I still have a lot to do tho.  My thoughts and prayers are with my wife today, as they usaully are.  I hope that she is feeling better also.  if there is anybody else reading this, please pray for guidance for me and Sarah.  I keep replaying everything in my head, and really need to stop.  Please pray for that too.  i am trying very hard and need to always remember, one day at a time.  I also need to focus on patience.  That is a virtue that i have never had.  Hopefully i can learn that too.  Day one of being smoke free!  Pray for the strength to say no!  thank you to whomever reads this and their prayers!