I have found myself in yet another church that is full of phoneys. Every time I get together with them they only talk about buying stuff and they constantly pretend to have perfect lives. I also feel like they look down on me for not having as many material things. My previous pastor came right out and told me, in so many words, that most of the church is better than me because they grew up in good homes and I didn't . I'm starting to get that feeling with these folks too. I desperately want to belong somewhere, anywhere. I only feel love when I'm holding the bible to my chest.