Church
Okay went to church tonight again. The men and women have separate groups. The guys do a Bible Study. The women do a DVD that has been the same person for over 2 years. I don't like it. Tired of it, but anyway go cause usually my hubby won't go if I don't. He really likes his class.
Anyway, every Wednesday nite either the leader and always the DVD speaker will bring death of someone, I really get so disgusted with it. I am dealing with it enough on my own. So finally, the leader starts talking about an elderly man who had died recently but I already knew the story as I had talked to the family a couple weeks ago. But she decided to talk 15 mins. about his death. Which is fine, he had a long life.
Finally, they turn on the DVD, what does she said. " There is a dear wonderful Christian woman in our church that died of a horrible cancer. I just decided this was not for me. One of the ladies turned to me and said I dont' blame you as I walked out. I think the speaker on the DVD uses what she thinks is a sad story to get attentions. She talks how bad it is for her loss. Worst loss ever. At first I though she had lost a child to death, no she had taken care of a child that went back to live with his mother. She was not to be his mother and it was family, so she still sees him.
So anyway, I just went to the church office and looked at papers, went out side and took pic of the sunset with my phone. Finally it was over and I told my husband, i just can't keep doing this every Wednesday nite, go listen to someone talk about death, cancer , etc just losing my son to that horrible disease.
So my husband and I have agreed, since he likes the class, he will go and I will go to my grandson ballgame. That way I am not continues having to be so sad during the day and go hear about death, when we should be going to get a blessing.
So that is how my day ended.
I am thankful that my husband decided to keep going and give me a break..from it all.
Thanks for listening to me vent.
Anyway, every Wednesday nite either the leader and always the DVD speaker will bring death of someone, I really get so disgusted with it. I am dealing with it enough on my own. So finally, the leader starts talking about an elderly man who had died recently but I already knew the story as I had talked to the family a couple weeks ago. But she decided to talk 15 mins. about his death. Which is fine, he had a long life.
Finally, they turn on the DVD, what does she said. " There is a dear wonderful Christian woman in our church that died of a horrible cancer. I just decided this was not for me. One of the ladies turned to me and said I dont' blame you as I walked out. I think the speaker on the DVD uses what she thinks is a sad story to get attentions. She talks how bad it is for her loss. Worst loss ever. At first I though she had lost a child to death, no she had taken care of a child that went back to live with his mother. She was not to be his mother and it was family, so she still sees him.
So anyway, I just went to the church office and looked at papers, went out side and took pic of the sunset with my phone. Finally it was over and I told my husband, i just can't keep doing this every Wednesday nite, go listen to someone talk about death, cancer , etc just losing my son to that horrible disease.
So my husband and I have agreed, since he likes the class, he will go and I will go to my grandson ballgame. That way I am not continues having to be so sad during the day and go hear about death, when we should be going to get a blessing.
So that is how my day ended.
I am thankful that my husband decided to keep going and give me a break..from it all.
Thanks for listening to me vent.
Replies
I don\'t think I could sit through all that either.Going through grief needs to be a selfish act. We need to do all and everything that makes us survive and go through grief and come out at the other end at our own pace. Hugs, Inga
Sounds like you found a perfect solution. Enjoy the ball games. Love to you. Robin
Good for you. Good solution too. Hugs Cathy