Christmas 2019

Funny how I'm the one dealing with a chronic pain condition but I put everyone before myself. Today was a ok day into the one person I have been thinking about for the last few months decided to call my sister. This person is my father. Now we have always had a funny relationship but that's a different story for another day. This man didn't even speak to me or my kids to say Merry Christmas or nothing. I have always felt like he don't love me like he loves my sister but when I tell you the hurt was something different today. I wanted to cry so bad but honestly I couldn't because I feel like I have tried for years and nothing has changed so I'm done trying. Sometimes I just want him to pick the phone up and say hey I love you or something. Even with him knowing about what I'm dealing with he still wont call me. He will call my sister but never me. I have a wonderful husband and family it just feels like a piece of me is missing without him but as of today I will not cry another tear for him.