Chicago

I am going to Chicago this coming Wednesday. I am going to visit my botchie and other family members. I am somewhat panicy about the entire thing. Luke my brother trys to compair hisself to me all of the time telling me that I am more priviliged than he is. He has not steppted in my shoes and doesn't understand what I have been through these past 3 years. I hope that he is going to be light on these remarks during the trip I am already depressed and in a state of panic. I feel like I have to compair myself to everyone else in my family well in my extended family. I know that it's wierd but it is what I feel I can base myself on. I dont know I am so sad I dont really want to go one this trip, yet I think that it will be nice for me to get out of Denver and do something new.