CD11 update - will my cycle get cancelled ?
We'll I went for my U/S yesterday and things weren't really looking better. My follie was over 15 so I got the ok to start my meds. I have to say, I don't remember them making me feel this bad after the first day but of course I still have my cold and deep down I know it might all be for nothing so that might be why I think it's worst.
I go back tomorrow morning to find out if we are cancelling or not. I know I should be thinking that if it's not the right time then it's ok to cancel. Problem is, at this point I figure if my lining isn't good enough than it probably never will be. I don't think I have the heart to give up just yet but at what point do I have to say we've tried everything and it isn't working. They told be 5 1/2 years ago that it would be really hard for me to get a BFP, then some said I shouldn't even try.
I've had 3 surgeries in the past year and my RE said that after the last one my lining was the best she's seen it so far, but that's not good enough. Iknow it's silly but I think a BFN would be easier to take for me then a cancelled cycle. Just not being good enough to even try seems so final to me.
I'm trying to stay positive. I even jumped up and down on my bed with my son today in hopes to get the liquid out. OK, you can all laugh at me but what is a girl to do to help things come out. I'm out of ideas at this point.
Thanks for all your support. Your posts are what is keeping me going right now. I'm not getting much support for the few friends that know about my cycle and just don't get it.
Hugs.
I go back tomorrow morning to find out if we are cancelling or not. I know I should be thinking that if it's not the right time then it's ok to cancel. Problem is, at this point I figure if my lining isn't good enough than it probably never will be. I don't think I have the heart to give up just yet but at what point do I have to say we've tried everything and it isn't working. They told be 5 1/2 years ago that it would be really hard for me to get a BFP, then some said I shouldn't even try.
I've had 3 surgeries in the past year and my RE said that after the last one my lining was the best she's seen it so far, but that's not good enough. Iknow it's silly but I think a BFN would be easier to take for me then a cancelled cycle. Just not being good enough to even try seems so final to me.
I'm trying to stay positive. I even jumped up and down on my bed with my son today in hopes to get the liquid out. OK, you can all laugh at me but what is a girl to do to help things come out. I'm out of ideas at this point.
Thanks for all your support. Your posts are what is keeping me going right now. I'm not getting much support for the few friends that know about my cycle and just don't get it.
Hugs.
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I think if you got to start your stims, that is a great sign! I think I can understand the feeling that if it\'s canceled, you feel like you didn\'t really try. But you are trying and if it is canceled, you will get to try again. So keep jumping up and down on the bed with your son (just for fun!). We are here for you, sending you lots of positive vibes, and waiting for your report tomorrow. Good luck! HUGS!
I am keeping my fingers crossed that this will stay the course and be the one.
Sorry you are having a tough cycle. I still have hope for you. It\'s not over till its over. I always feel better when I\'m at least trying. Hang in there!
Jumping on the bed was a great idea, not sure if it helped with the liquid or not but I am sure it helped your spirits a bit.
I am sorry things are not going so well this cycle, I don\'t think it\'s an end all though. First see what happens tomorrow, then if it is cancelled mourn this cycle but look forward to the next. 5 1/2 years ago they said you\'d never have a BFP but you proved them wrong. Now the next step is to further prove them wrong by having a full term pregnancy. I believe you will,
Hang in there. Remember you are strong and wonderful.
I like the idea of jumping up and down! Even if it didn\'t work, you had to try and also I\'m sure you and your son had fun doing it! I can totally see how you don\'t want to give up but aren\'t feeling too positive. I think you are an incredibly strong woman for trying for so long and not letting the \"odds\" get in your way. I could learn something from that!!!! Hang in there xoxo
I\'m praying for you! Hang in there. Don\'t give up yet! Have faith!!!
Roxy I really hope that you get some great news tomorrow! I am sorry that this cycle hasn\'t been off to the best starts, but like you said, if it is not going to be a perfect cycle then having it cancelled is OK. You want the best chances possible. You have been through so much and in the grand scheme of things one more month isn\'t the worst thing in the world for a greater chance at success! Stay strong....I am staying hopeful for you! XOXO
You all know what to tell me to make me feel better. You are right jumping on the bed did make me feel better... just hope my son doesn\'t think we can do it every day.
I\'m a little more hopefull tonight and really have to believe they will ok my cycle tomorrow.
Alana, your words really it home. I did get two BFPs this year and that was in it self a surprise. I have to believe one will eventually stick. If it\'s not this month it will still hapend. I\'ve been through so much that I have to stay strong,
I have to say the meds are getting the better of me. I really hope I\'m not taking them for nothing, I already have bruises.
Hey, sometimes I want to jump up and down and scream, so I think jumping on the bed with your son sounds like a good time! Your folli made it to 15, so that\'s good...I hope the good news keeps coming tomorrow. Hang in there!!! xoxo
Lol to the jumping on the bed! I hope it helped and you are on your way to your next baby!!!
The liquid is almost all gone. My RE gave me estrace on top of the viagra and my stims. I\'m doing a blood test to see if i trigger today or tomorrow. I\'m so happy that I get to try. My lining was 6, 9 for me on CD 12 that\'s real good.
Thanks for your support. I finally have some hope back.
I don\'t even care that the stims are making me feel awfull and that my headack is killing me.
Think of me !!!! Looking at transfert Wednesday or thursday : )
So glad things are turning out for the better!!
Oh I am so glad to hear you can try! It must have been jumping on the bed with your son that did it! ;-). Sending lots of baby dust your way:)
Roxy, we will definitely be thinking of you!!! I am so happy that things are still moving! Sorry about the headache, hopefully the next few days go quickly and you will be PUPO, too. :)
So happy to hear you received better news Roxy! I will be praying for you!