catastrophie

nothing in my life is good. Its all my fault i know, so i can't really complain about it. I just cant seem to make anything work right. i think that my wife is going to divorce me. I can't afford to keep my son in a good school,  i will probably loose my house by the end of the year, and I owe a butt load in taxes from my failed buisness attempt. there is nothing left. no reason to go on. I just got off of the phone with my Mom. i made lite conversation and pretended like every thing is going well. I dont want her to worry. but even with her, i just cant stand the thought of anymore tomorrows.I'm begining to wonder if my SA really has anything at all to do with the way i act. Cant remember to do important things, cant concentrait, isolate myself, push people away, incapable of being a good husband. Thats just me. I know that i have some friends here at DS, but you guys dont really know me. I mean if you had to deal with the chaos that i leave in my wake yall would'nt like me. I'm just takeing up space, and everyones valubale time. If i have ever said anything to any of yall that was upseting or wrong please know that i always have the best intentions. I just can't seem to anything right.