car accident....xoxoxoxo

hi.......got rear ended on Tuesday the 28th around 8 pm.  by a big suv driven by a teen driver.  a young lady.

creeping along in traffic....about at the freeway, waiting to get on......car in front of me hit their brakes hard.  i responded by hitting my brakes hard...glanced up and WHAM.  hit by a big suv.

there was a driveway to my immediate right.....pulled in and then pulled to the left away from the adult novelty store (i know right.....!?!).  we parked at an angle to each other.  i was trying for calm but all my internal calm sensors were shaken rattled and rolled.  i hunted for my phone in my purse......items were scattered all over the floor of my car.

needed reading glasses, hands shaking....heart racing......legs shaking.......took some trial and error to dial 911.....but i got through...   --- she got the basics.  location, overall incident details, wanted to know if i needed an ambulance......wanted to know if the other driver needed an ambulance.

the young lady said no.....i heard her telling her dad that i was an old lady.  ouch ....stupid to tell you this maybe but it hurt my tender 61 years young lady feelings.  ... a white haired dinosaur with a license.  i could feel pressure in my neck, the hit had aggravated my already messed up  neck/back.....spine, etc.  the air bags did not deploy....had my seat belt on......freaking out.  but managing.....

got transferred to the ciry of suwanee police dept.  they dispatched a unit to our location.  while waiting i tried to call the kids but my phone told me it couldn't disengage because the line must be left open in case of need for emergency services.  i didn't know that it worked like that......so i sat. 

the  young lady was soooo young.  when i asked her if she needed an ambulance, she seemed very surprised, she said, no, GOD NO!  ......she said are you ok, i said i'm scared.......she pounced......"what are you scared about???"  i said, "are you kidding me?  you just hit me with your SUV!"

she said she had looked at my car, that everything was fine.......really?  huh, not even believing miss teen car expert 2017.  i'm venting today, in a cross mood.  i have pain in my brain and want the world to be quiet.........quieter than an empty library.  shhhhhhh.  but i felt this need to be up......to get the smelly trash to the curb, get the mail.  be a person.

head down the driveway, there are tree limbs everywhere......we had a bad storm this week. i haven't been out of the house since this happened, pretty surprised to see a big chunk of wooden fence lying on the ground.  (----half of the fencing on the right side of the house).  really?  really Lord??? really?

no time for pity but i feel like singing the self pity song.  if only i knew the words.  gonna have to make one up for these occasions.  i should go get cat food, eggs and bread but honestly i don't want to drive.  i'll have to get over that cause i have to drive my car to the body shop on monday at noon.  sam is picking me up and returning me home.

he asked me if i have rental car coverage, i have no clue......

two days ago that big crown the bad dentist reattached fell out of my mouth.......my other dentist office didn't call me back yet.

back to the accident.....sara came to be with me.....she was wonderful.  sam came later......they took turns

i wanted to look at my car but didn't trust my legs.  thought it would be a bad idea.  the office was very nice.....he helped sara put me in her car to transport me to gwinnett medical....to be looked over.  i didn't want to go, all i wanted was home......but i know if it had been the kids i would have insisted......so off we went. 

before we left the young lady's dad got there.....he was more solicitious than his daughter but then turned to demand of the officer in a hard voice, "What REALLY happened here?"  as though someone was holding out on him......as though the whole thing was engineered.  the officer spoke to him very slowly......"it was an accident, your daughter rear ended this woman's car, it was an accident."

venting out my bad mood.......can't quite believe a big chunk of my fence is on the ground, the medical person from my insurance didn't call, the dentist's office didn't call.....grrrrr. 

i need a break from brain pain.....when i lean over i can feel my pulse pounding on the right side mid rear skull area. so much sinus pressure.........where is the release valve on this sucker?  when i look up to the sky omheavenlymess.....it hurts.  not gonna look up or down......sinus pressure is so mean.

i want to curl up in momma's lap.....suck my thumb, be rocked to sleep......come back to adulthood later......when things are better.....when i'm better.  heard someone say do you know why zebras don't get ulcers?  and i thought ummmm no clue.

she explained it like this.....she was on safari and saw a tiger attack a group of zebras, they scattered.......the tiger got one zebra by the neck and a big struggle ensued.  somehow the zebra managed to get away and run back to his zebra family......she said as soon as the zebra got back to his group, he stopped and very deliberately SHOOK IT OFF.  literally shook the attack off with his whole zebra striped body and then that was that.  the zebra returned to grazing just like before the attack.

i admire the idea......but i'm not there yet......not able to simply shake stuff off in a hot minute. 

i'm on my own so this is a good time to let it outtttttttttttttttt. 

sara was with me for a good bit at the hospital, she and sam worked out a plan, she went to meet him with my keys.  they took my car to my house.....sam fed the starving kitties and sara packed an overnight bag......i was so glad when i finally got home, i'd been having spasms in places i never have spasms.  home sweet home is gooooood.

the next day sara received a diagnosis of fibromyalgia.  they ruled out MS......the test results for Lupus were inconclusive.  she doesn't want to pursue that avenue any further as yet.  she wants to work on the fibromyalgia based on her doctors orders....

please pray for my daughter.......some days i realize she will be 30 on the 30th of this month and other days she's stilil my little girl.

my car has cracks and stuff, at the very least the geezermobile will get a new rear bumper and get the broken light parts fixed......hopefully it won't take too long. 

maybe if i put a sock full of rice on my head it will ease this pain........somebody told me it can help ease sinus pain.

sorry for being so crabby today.  love you.......hugggggs!  i wouldn't get to be this gripey if the accident had been worse, so praise God for grumpy live people.  even me......!!

your grouchy porcupine pal.