Can't Communicate
I feel like I have a lot to say, yet the words don't come to me easy so I can't communicate these emotions. I'm feeling so much like a burden, feeling so sad, and feeling like happiness has tricked me. The thing is that I don't even want to try to get myself out of the dark. I just want it to consume me and take me away. Just to take me away and help me get lost because I want to be lost. If I was found I would have to deal with all the things that make me feel lost. If I was actually lost I wouldn't have to wonder why I feel lost. I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense, again words are not helping when I try to communicate my emotions.
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Hmmm... I understand completely. But you should try to look for a new \"darkness\" and have that consume you, and make you feel happy.
You\'re right, but I honestly don\'t want to. I saw your newest discussion post about thinking of suicide, please don\'t. Don\'t go there, don\'t be like me, because I can\'t find a way back to who I was without this darkness. I don\'t even want this darkness to go away. Please while you still strong, find a way out.