Can't believe it - real bad urges
I can't belive it, but I have real bad urges to go to the casino right now and I'm hoping that time will help me get over them. I haven't done anything yet, but I am ever so tempted. I can visualize myself winning winning winning and now with some time in recovery under my belt, being able to walk away with the $$....
I hope things subside and I get through to Sunday night as my husband is not home at this time. We have a nice day planned Monday but there is too much time between now and then. {!!!!!!!}
Hope everyone is doing better than I am right now... I know all the logic, of course but it's not hitting me now - open to any words of wisdom...
I hope things subside and I get through to Sunday night as my husband is not home at this time. We have a nice day planned Monday but there is too much time between now and then. {!!!!!!!}
Hope everyone is doing better than I am right now... I know all the logic, of course but it's not hitting me now - open to any words of wisdom...
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i had some urges today- my usual well if I put $20 in and double it that would be great but then I visulaized myself putting 20 in and losing it and then another 20 to catch that one etc. i could picture myself at the machine looking pathetic 20 after 20- minute after minute until an hour goes by and i have nothing except disgust. so maybe try to envision you losing instead of winning- it worked fro me today.
Well for starters Pat, if you go, you will lose because that is your record. You never take it home, you stay until it\'s all gone. So..... my question is this. What will you tell your hubby after he has been working his ass off all weekend trying to make a living and be a responsible guy? What about the trust? Now he can\'t trust you anymore when he leaves for a couple days? He needs to sit and hold your hand or lock you up so you won\'t go and destroy all your have worked for? I know I am being hard but it\'s the truth isn\'t it? Or do you want me to sugar coat it and say, what the hell, go ahead and spend it all, no one is going to be hurt by it. You can\'t go running off to Lala land everytime you feel lonely or stressed. You need to face it and be an adult about it. Now I said it. I sure hope it helps. lots of hugs and hopes you will pay attention. barb