Came to a Boiling Point

I am had a MAJOR breakdown down on June 13,2008. I went ballistic friday. I was in a fucked up mood all day. Everything irrated in the worse way. People didn't know how to drive & rude(So. California). I ask my family for money for a surgery and they are dragging their fucking feet. I  can't find a job. I albolutely lost purpose. I was to out of it that I rip my shirt into shreds. I cried out like I like someone. (I did me).  I left the house and went to see "The Hulk". Great movie but wrong movie to see when you very angry. I came home and lost it. I smash and scream to loud. My wife and to get on top me to console me. I actually blackout and my wife have to talked some sense in me. I actually don't remember what she told me to snapped me out of it. I think day night was the pinnacle of me not finding work. I been looking for work for six months. I felt helpless as a man. I felt alone and I'M ANGRY AT GOD FOR THE FEELING OF BEING FORSAKEN.  I come from a religious background. So for now, I'm not talking to Him. I can't escape but I feel angry for His lack of support even when I was praying everyday. Eventually I will talked to Him again.  I feel evil people  prosper but if you try to do the right thing you get punish. i FEEL LIKE TELLING TO WORLD TO FUCK ALL . FUCK THE WHOLE WORLD. I DECLARE WAR ON EVERYBODY. That's how feel. I feel purposeless. All my education and learning  have failed. I should have cheated in school to get ahead because those fuckers are making a good living know.  I don't know what to do.  Do anybody know what I'm going through?