Brother causing more stress, again.
Since Christmas it has been pretty good. My brother has kept away mostly and ther has bee nothing much of any stress onmy life.
But now he is starting to interfere with my Sister and causing her to act out again and bringing it into our lives once more.
I"m not going to go over the whole arguments he and I have been having scince they were no nsensical and more or less the same thing as always but the problem isn't the arguments, I dont mind an argument as long as it helps to work things out but they never do because he only accuses and insults and can't seem to hold on to any point I"m trying to make.
Now, after his calling me twice and hanging up on me both times. (Check out past entries about this hang up issue) my chest is burning and I am shaking. Writing usually calms me tho I wish I had someone to talk to about him. I thought maybe I had found someone in the one of his freinds, Jennifer, who my brother has been trying to get to work withmy sister. I think she would be ok with the work but now I'm not sure as she and I were talking and then the next day Keith, my brother, is calling me and asking me about things I supposedly said. I guess I cna't talk to Jennifer any more. I dont know if it is Keith not hearing what she said or if she is two faced and saying one thing to me and another to him but if it causes him to call and question me about things then I don't need it.
Shaking has gone but stil feel tightness and heat in my chest.
I think I hate more not being able to come to some kind of end to things more than being upset and beitgn shut out without a conclusion. I wanted to say more to my brother but he wouldn't' listen to me and hung up. He just kept accusing me of doing things and saying things I didn't do or say and gave me no chance to find out what he was talking about or explain. It is eating at my craw.
He says that I am always talking to him like he is stupid or cna't understand what I'm saying. If I think he is being stupid I tell him I dont try and imply it with what I ask him. He infers it and accuses me of it but if anything it is ony him thhiniing it or maybe feelign like he is stupid even tho I'm not thinking that is the case. Maybe it is just a way for him to try and turn my arguments to something else, I'm not sure. My brother isn't stupid he is uncaring, stubborn, inconsiderate, selfish and bullying and I do think I am smarter than him but he is still smart but not smart enough to not get sidetracked with whatever feelings he is having to completely lose any sitye of the argument we ewere having.
That's all.
Edit, he claled me back nothing was solved but nothing more happened. It was an ok call. He did accuse me of the t hing I was trying to to tell him, as usualy and I called him on this and what does he do he says I do the same thing and don't do waht I'm asking him to do. it never ends.
But now he is starting to interfere with my Sister and causing her to act out again and bringing it into our lives once more.
I"m not going to go over the whole arguments he and I have been having scince they were no nsensical and more or less the same thing as always but the problem isn't the arguments, I dont mind an argument as long as it helps to work things out but they never do because he only accuses and insults and can't seem to hold on to any point I"m trying to make.
Now, after his calling me twice and hanging up on me both times. (Check out past entries about this hang up issue) my chest is burning and I am shaking. Writing usually calms me tho I wish I had someone to talk to about him. I thought maybe I had found someone in the one of his freinds, Jennifer, who my brother has been trying to get to work withmy sister. I think she would be ok with the work but now I'm not sure as she and I were talking and then the next day Keith, my brother, is calling me and asking me about things I supposedly said. I guess I cna't talk to Jennifer any more. I dont know if it is Keith not hearing what she said or if she is two faced and saying one thing to me and another to him but if it causes him to call and question me about things then I don't need it.
Shaking has gone but stil feel tightness and heat in my chest.
I think I hate more not being able to come to some kind of end to things more than being upset and beitgn shut out without a conclusion. I wanted to say more to my brother but he wouldn't' listen to me and hung up. He just kept accusing me of doing things and saying things I didn't do or say and gave me no chance to find out what he was talking about or explain. It is eating at my craw.
He says that I am always talking to him like he is stupid or cna't understand what I'm saying. If I think he is being stupid I tell him I dont try and imply it with what I ask him. He infers it and accuses me of it but if anything it is ony him thhiniing it or maybe feelign like he is stupid even tho I'm not thinking that is the case. Maybe it is just a way for him to try and turn my arguments to something else, I'm not sure. My brother isn't stupid he is uncaring, stubborn, inconsiderate, selfish and bullying and I do think I am smarter than him but he is still smart but not smart enough to not get sidetracked with whatever feelings he is having to completely lose any sitye of the argument we ewere having.
That's all.
Edit, he claled me back nothing was solved but nothing more happened. It was an ok call. He did accuse me of the t hing I was trying to to tell him, as usualy and I called him on this and what does he do he says I do the same thing and don't do waht I'm asking him to do. it never ends.
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