Brothers

Hello Everyone,  I wanted to write about my brothers today.  My mother had three children.  I am the oldest and the only girl.  I am 45, Brian is 43 and Phillip is 41.  I love my brothers very much.  I have been sister, friend and mother to them for a long time.  I am the one they come to.  Phillip leaves in Tennessee bearly making it.  He has a job and a place to live but I can only imagne what that place is.  He has not license so he lives close enough to his job to walk to work.  He really enjoys his job.  He came home last Friday morning on the Greyhound bus.  He had some vacation time.  I put him back on the bus this morning.  He stays with John and I when he is home.  He gives me something to come home to when he is here.  Since Josh's death when John is not home I am not home either.  I miss Phillip already.  John had to work today for an outage and is finally on his way home.  It is just lonely here by myself.  Brian----I will be taking him to court tomorrow.  There is a very good chance he will not be coming back home with me.  About two years ago he got a DWI.  60 days in jail or 5 years probation.  He took the probation.  Why I do not know?  He has missed a couple of his appointments with his officer, failed a couple of drug test, not showed up for court, hiding when they were looking him etc.  They found him.  He lives with my daddy.  Daddy and I went and stood his bond for Drew (his son).  His first court appearance they were taking him away when his lawyer wanted to appeal.  Well tomorrow is the day.  I have to take my brother to court and leave with out him.  Mama is not going.  It is making it sick the more I think about it.  Brian is the brother that likes to hang out with Daddy and I.  We do alot of antiquing together.  We are going to Greensboro, NC for a bottle show and now Brian will not be able to go.  I don't even think he has told Drew's mama, so that means I will have to be the one to break the news if they keep him.  WHY WHY WHY He has brought this on himself.  He could have been finished with this along time ago doing like he was supposed to. Now he will be taken away for 60 days.  I know that is not a long time but 60 days is 60 days.  Brian is also the cook in the family.  He does all of the cooking for the clean up days for Josh.  Well October 6th is Josh's birthday and we are having a cleanup day but guess who will not be there.  At least he will be out by Thanksgiving.  Please pray for me tomorrow as I have to do this.  A sister doing a mother's role.